My first blog post
Hello world. Here goes with my first blog post. It’s only been 13 years and more in the making. I will eventually come to why that is but bear with me, I’ll start with an introduction about who I am and the recent events that led me to starting this blog.
I’m a 44-year-old woman. Married, no kids, one gorgeous pup. Perimenopause knocked me for six. I feel like it started in my late 30’s, but doctors kept telling me I was too young. My usual 2-week PMS symptoms felt like they were around all month. After trying (again) the GP recommended anti depressants – that did nothing – and lots of personal research and £££ spent, I was prescribed HRT.
The joint and body pains and aches stopped, and I was sleeping a bit better. I wasn’t crying so much. Still felt low, still had little focus, still couldn’t leave the house without going back a few times to pick up forgotten items or check I hadn’t walked out and left the door wide open, still chronically rushing or late. Despite that, things felt a little better until they didn’t. I was vocal with friends about how much HRT helped me, but not so much about all the other crippling symptoms that I couldn’t mask anymore. My confidence continued to tank. I felt hopeless. More research, tests and £££ spent.
Then a little spark turned into full-on ‘hyper-fixation’. A term I hadn’t realised that described my lifelong intense absorption in researching ideas and details. Until I learnt this term, I thought I couldn’t focus or concentrate. It turns out I can, but only if I’m interested in solving a problem. I can’t remember what the exact spark was, but the more I deep dived into the topic, the more everything made sense. How perimenopause can unravel and unmask undiagnosed ADHD.
Part of the reason for this blog is to have an outlet to take creative, consistent action. Something that has always felt out of my reach. With that in mind, rather than taking too long and not taking the actions to publish this post today. I’ll be back with part 2, and maybe 3, where I’ll detail how I got my diagnosis, and why that has given me some confidence to finally start something I’ve wanted to do for over 13 years – write a blog. Also, what messy manifesting means to me, now I know about my ADHD.
J xo